Pray for my love




I'm angry, I'm angry at myself, angry at destiny, angry at life!



I grew up a princess until the first storm hit when I was 16 and
I just decided that I had a bad life.
I used to think that I didn't have a good life.


I have food to eat, clothes to wear, place to stay.
Nothing very fancy but I always have enough, more than enough. 
Had couple of boys breaking my heart, that was it.
I never knew that my life had been so good until today.



We take things for granted because
we always think we have a lot of time.
Today, I completely understand it. I feel it. Utterly. Entirely.
I always preach, I always tell people to appreciate, I always say it on my blog.
I should've tried harder, I should've known better, I should've tried more!



I was smiling happily. Making plans for next month, next year.
It all gets taken away today, I feel like my right to be happy has been stripped away.
I asked God why. Why me? Why him? He has been a faithful follower of God.
He's not perfect but he is a great dad, a great person, a great son of God.
Why him? Why me? Why my family?
I was smiling happily on Monday, I had plans today, tomorrow.
 Just like that. A phone call, a CT scan. That's all I get.
So sudden. So abrupt. It was unexpected. Unforeseen.
How rude can life be? How abrupt can it be? How did life just interrupt me like this?
Why? I've been a good daughter, good sister, good aunt! Why me?!
It's unfair! I've been a good family girl, a daddy girl, a mummy girl, I've been good!
Just how life gets to do this to us? How? WHY? Life doesn't have the right to!
I don't understand it but I have to swallow the fact.
Why do I have to swallow this? Why?
Because it's life.
Well, FUCK LIFE.




Let my example remind you to appreciate your parents, your family.
Do not think that you still have a lot of time and family can wait.
No, don't do that. Don't take the small things for granted. Just don't.
You never know, live to the fullest with them.
Celebrate everything. Smile and laugh together. Go home for dinner. Hug them.
Tell them you love them tho it's cheesy.
Not enough, just not enough, never enough.



The storm just hit today, it was a big hit but I know this is not the worst hit.
The worse is coming but I don't want it to ever come.



To the first man I ever love, I will always love, forever love,
I'm sorry that I took you for granted, I didn't do enough, I'm sorry, my love, I'm sorry.
As cliche as it sounds, you will walk me down the aisle in your favourite church one day.
Christine is on diet to be married in your favourite church too, you'll have to be there.
We have to get through this or else I'm not getting married and I want to be married.
I love it when you always tell people "this is my youngest daughter!" like you're super proud.
I haven't done you proud and I will do you proud someday. I will.
Please.
I love you so much that it hurts, papi.
We love you very much.

Mum, Elizabeth, Christine, Daphne. 
16 November 2016





 Please say a word of prayer for my love, Francis.
In your language, in your religion, in your prayer, in your words.
Say a prayer for my father.
Amen. God bless all of you.



24 comments:

  1. Hope your dad get well soon ~

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  2. I can feel your when my dad got diagnosed for early stage cancer last year. Our siblings now spend more times and even talk more with dad. Hope that our dad can live longer as much as he can. We should fighting together. *Fighting and praying together* 💪🏾💪🏾

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  3. May God bless your dad and your family. Let there be more cherished times together!

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  4. May God Shower His Healing Power! Amen.

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  5. Were in your position in the mid of April this year. And also my grandfather, a day before new year. Everything came too sudden. I barely can accept they are gone forever. Never thought my dad would leave us so soon. We only get to know he was diagnosed with cancer earlier on April and he was gone 20 days later. Never thought it will be so fast. Too fast. Appreciate every moment you have with your loves one.

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  6. Dear Daphne,

    I've been there and know exactly how you feel right now. From experience, there is a few things you and your family can do right now.
    1. Find him the possibly best medical treatment there is; there's always a chance & hope if it's discovered early.

    2. The pain he is going through is something you could never have imagined; especially if there's treatments going on, heading in and out the hospitals. Be at his comfort don't leave him alone, he might loose his own patience wanting to give up, be patient with him.

    3. Most importantly, the whole family, his loved ones, be around him sharing happiness and positive vibes no matter how bad you know it is, or how much you wanted to cry. Take him to places he always wanted to visit, do things he always wanted to do, buy him food he always loved even if the doctors forbid, let him taste like he once did. The only thing you want him to feel now is happiness without any regrets. And positive energy might cure better than any treatments you can find.

    5. Pray hard and stay strong. God might just be kind enough to let him stay when he sees how much love the family have for him.

    Above all, do take care yourself well to take good care of him.

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  7. Daphne, worrying won't stop the bad thing from happening, stay positive like you used to.

    Good things gonna happen soon.

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  8. May this tough time pass and pray only the best for your dad... #getwellsoon

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  9. Prayed! Hope he gets well you regards

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  10. May god bless your whole family, especially your dad, may he get well soon and stay strong alrights..

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  11. Aaron Lee Wei XiangNovember 17, 2016 at 6:16 AM

    May God's mighty healing hands be upon your dad so that he will be healed. God will strengthen him physically, mentally and spiritually. Do not give up and have faith in the Lord. I know how you feel and what you are going through because i am in the same situation like you now as well. My dad suffered a heart attack yesterday and he is now in the Coronary Care Unit and i am praying for his healing as well. Stay strong and never lose faith. Trust God and His grace will be upon our dads. Amen.

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  12. Each day you have with him is precious. Make each second count. Make each second memorable. Believe Him for He is the same, yesterday, today and forever. Shalom

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  13. Accepting the fact and dealing with it, has never been easy. You are fine to cry it out loud at a corner, everyday we either earn it or learn it. May god bless you and your family.

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  14. May god always be with you and your family, God will always be there to support you during this difficult times. That's life.

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  15. Sending good vibes to you. I hope your dad will get well soon.

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  16. May god bless your dad and your family.

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  17. If ur dad haven't been to UM, go there for 2nd opinion. UM is well equipped in treating cancer..

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  18. Keeping you and your family in my prayers. Praying that the comfort of God's presence be upon you at this moment of time. Stay strong. God Bless.

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  19. Hope this might be of some help. A family friend has experienced improvements in cancer after consuming this traditional herbal remedy. God bless.
    http://www.liveinthenow.com/article/powerful-cancer-killing-compound-found-in-rare-medicinal-mushroom
    https://markkay.wordpress.com/2013/03/04/i-finally-got-my-hands-on-the-tiger-milk-mushroom/

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