Kinda feeling sentimental today.
I think it's mainly because of being nominated by Elle Malaysia for Digital Media Influencer award.
Jane, Ash, Duogigs++ got nominated as well.
So ya, no competition at all cuz they too strong anyway, lol.
I don't know why I'm just feeling a little sentimental.
I've been blogging for quite some time now, been on Instagram for quite some time now.
I'm not a fashionista, I'm not the best writer, I don't do the best make up but
I've always tried to influence people in a good way. Well, at least I think I do, haha.
Ok, maybe not the alcohol part, (but wine is good for health though)
people who follow me know that I party quite often.
Still, partying doesn't make a person bad, don't judge me like that ok? Lol.
Sometimes, you don't even need alcohol to party.
I like to be the party because I like to make people happy.
I want people to see me and know that I'm the party, that I bring the happiness and fun.
You don't just go to a party and not do anything, then expect it to be fun.
You gotta MAKE it fun.
I don't know why this drifted away to partying, pardon me.
Remember this simple blog post I wrote about
This blog post has hit 100,000views and I don't know how it happened.
It's not like a poetry, good literature or whatever.
It's just a simple, truthful blog post.
I was very heartbroken, two years ago.
It was my darkest time, dark dark dark but I didn't really show it on social media.
It's such a shame to me that I fell into depression two years ago.
I was so depressed for a year and my friends were all so worried about me.
Last Saturday, Jane told me not to fall back into depression again, so much feels.
I think she'll give up on me if I ever fall back again, she probably will.
She put up with all my shit before that, don't know how she did it, haha, Ashley too.
Ahhh, great friends are so important, so crucial, I'm extremely thankful.
Jane, Ashley, Kexin used to take turn to text me everyday.
Short message : "Alive?"
I would say yes. Then, they constantly checked if I was alive for quite a long time.
Yeh, I was in a bad shape last time, looking back at it, it's damn funny.
They are very protective now because they don't want me to ever fall back into depression.
They make fun of me sometimes about having depression last time cuz I'm all fine now.
In the blog post, I wrote that the only solution is time and the key is acceptance.
I think that's the most amazing I've written over the years, hahahaha!
I just want to tell you that the only solution is definitely TIME.
I never thought I could get over that matter but I did, I got over it.
You will get over it too, I know you don't feel like you can get over it now but you will.
Two years have passed, something strange happened again.
The pain I felt 2 years ago, it is all gone.
It is all gone.
I have been feeling so amazing lately.
Cause. The excruciating pain I felt 2 years ago is all gone.
I laugh about it now, there's nothing on my shoulder anymore.
I know I'm scarred but it healed, maybe the scar left a mark but maybe not, it healed.
It feels so good that it doesn't affect me anymore.
There's no hate for that person, no hate for that matter anymore.
There's no sadness, no more, it's gone.
I don't know how to convince you that it'll all be fine cuz
I can't really tell the stories, they are people's privacy as well, I can't lay them all out on the table.
I guess I just want to share my happiness for feeling alive again.
It's wonderful to feel this way, it's fantastic.
Life isn't going to go perfectly smooth after this.
But, keep telling yourself that TIME is the solution.
At least now I know, whatever sadness I feel now, a year later, it won't matter.
Get over it.